I Often Wonder.

Is everything complicated?

Or is it my head that makes everything complicated?

It's as if there's so much that should probably be clear as day to me, and yet I can sit and ponder myself into the biggest hole possible. My head can't decide which way it wants to go, or what answer it wants to settle on. Will they? Won't they? Should I? Shouldn't I? Did they? Did they not? Questions, questions and noooo answers.

It's my fault, too, which is kind of the worst part. I'm an over-thinker. I take the most basic things and turn them into the most unbelievable and topsy turvy things that boggle even me. Things that seem to make sense to everyone else, or are clear to everyone else might as well be an overcast day to me. Sometimes I can make things make sense to me, but it can be as simple as one single thing a person does, or says that can throw it all out of whack for me. It's very goofy of me and I'm trying my best to cut that shit out.

I keep a lot of it to myself which might be kind of a problem, too. When I vent to people.. I kind of ramble.. well, this whole blog is a ramble. I'll give you ten dollars if this makes perfect sense to you! Anyways! I ramble. And then I make a lot less sense to them than I'd like it to. It's as if it all makes sense in my head and then when I go to vent it out, it comes out like a 1000 piece puzzle that was all done in my head, but kinda fell out in all it's little pieces. So that's sort of why I don't like to talk directly to people. I guess that's why I have this blog. It's easier for me to type and vent to something that won't back talk me. :P And I guess it's not really as fulfilling as talking to an actual person.. oh well!

So yeah.. I don't know why I do it. I always have. Which is why I could never delve into psychology. I anaylze everything enough as it is. Could you imagine if I had the background to really get into people's heads? Good grief. I think psychology is incredibly interesting but I'd probably just twist my own mind up in the process.






By the way, you really aren't getting 10$ so shoo-shoo.