Retreat.

I feel like it's about time I work on building my walls back up again. I just feel.. like a lot is hurting me right now, and I remember how much easier it was to hurt when I had all my walls built. I let my guard down, I felt like maybe it was alright to be without my protection, but it's turning out that I was wrong. I don't know what it is lately, but so many things are really getting to me. Family, friends, matters of the heart. Just all sorts of things coming down on me and it's stressing me out way more than I think it should. Life was so much easier when I just didn't care. It's hardly a feeling of emptiness anymore, it's just sadness and other negative crap all the time now. Getting kinda ridiculous.. heh. I feel depressed, angry, lonely.. all sorts of emotions that are mixing into one bitter emotional cocktail. I absolutely realize how emo it is, and what's why I really hate it. I'm trying so hard to climb my way out of this hole, but I'm really short and I think the opening of the pit is waaaay out of my reach. I want to get myself out of this bloody pit before I work on putting myself back behind my nice, comforting walls. I feel it'd be so much better to find my normal, neutral level before I set myself up like that. I dunno how good it'd be to trap myself behind walls while also in a pit of despaaaair.. lol. Yay, I still have a sense of humour. ;P

Someone throw me a ladder? And maybe a care package with some cookies in it.