Keep Reaching.

I feel like I focussed myself well, today. For once in what's felt like forever, I had an honestly good day. I kept my head clear of all that negative junk and just let myself be.. happy. It really felt nice. But I'll be honest, it's not all easy. It's 3 am and I'm still not sleeping. I've been trying since midnight. As soon as I rested my eyes to sleep, that's when it all came down on my head like a ton of bricks. It's so hard to keep my mind away from all my rampant thoughts when I'm just laying there unoccupied.

I wish it was easier.. But hey, at least I know it's not impossible, right? I've just got to learn to re-adjust myself. I'm used to my nights being the best part of my day, and now they're getting to be the hardest and loneliest part. It's so much easier to occupy my mind during the day. And that's what I'm really trying to do. Occupy myself, push out all my negative thoughts so I can start a clean slate and work on that happiness thing. ;D

I have way too many great things in my life, and great people to be taking all of it for granted with this depression.