Yikes, I Need To Chill.

We all have those days right? Ya know, just those plain, god awful days where nothing bad even has to happen before you're in a terrible mood.

So what's my issue? I'm not even in a bad mood, or even close to it! Yet I'm being the bitchiest person ever. I don't even mean to be. It's like my short fuse just fell off and I don't even have a fuse anymore. I'm just ready to snap at any given moment. I've noticed this primarily with playing L4D lately. I get so irritated so quickly. I don't get upset at the game or anything, I've never been like that.. I just get so pissed off with the people. Even when I'm in a fantastic mood, it's like half of me is constantly raging. And for what? Hell if I know. I know I have this really bad tendency to just not like many people, it's just the way I am, but I've always been good at keeping calm and just dealing. I can't even halfway muster to do that anymore. And even if I don't like someone, or if I'm irritated with someone, the last thing I want to do is actually hurt them. But when I flip out I pretty much end up hurting someone anyways.

And what also sort of bothers me is what some people may think of me. I can be a bitch, but I don't think I am one. It's just that so many people have been in the line of fire and so many people have seen me flip that I half wonder what they think of me. I guess in the bigger picture it doesn't matter, but I'm curious. In general, I don't much care what people think, but it does suck to be taken the wrong way.

Note to self: work on the temper before I start lighting things on fire with my angry stare. :P